Saturday morning inspiration

It is a beautiful Saturday morning! The sun was shining brightly in the dining room window so I sat down at the table and put this together. Sometimes ideas come when you aren't planning for them....

The time was right

A couple of pieces I made tonite. I had these heart beads for a while but it was not until tonite that I knew how to put them together. Life is alot like that too.....it all comes together when the time is just right!

There are many things in life that will catch your eye, but only a few will catch your heart . . . pursue those.

Author Unknown

Pretty Butterfly

You can shed tears that she is  gone
 or you can smile

because she has lived.

You can close your eyes and pray

that she’ll come back
or you can open your eyes and see all she’s left.

Your heart can be empty because you can’t see her
or you can be full of the love you shared.

You can turn your back on tomorrow

and live yesterday
or you can be happy for tomorrow

because of yesterday.

You can remember her and only that she’s gone
or you can cherish her memory and let it live on.

You can cry and close your mind,
be empty and turn your back
or you can do what she’d want:
smile, open your eyes, love and go on.

http://youtu.be/yt8MAFApHWg

In time you will know

It has been almost a year since Kari passed away..... It is so hard to imagine that the time has gone so quickly. It has been a year of many ups and downs as I try and deal with my loss. Mine is of course so much different than her Mother's, her Father's, her Sister's and most of all her children's. We all had our own relationship with Kari and are dealing and trying to understand it in our own way.

I can say that through her passing there has come some understanding, not about what happened or why it happened because I still try and piece it together. There is no way that I can but my mind wants to balance the scales....I am a true Libra. The understanding comes in the form of my spirituality. I have been what could be referred to a a sideliner.....I would watch and listen and take away what I thought I should at the time. Now I feel like I am in the centre of the learning and growing and understanding. There is still so much to discover about this life that we have been given but I feel like I am ready to really "see" things in the way I am meant to. I feel like I am getting ready to bust out of my own coccoon....that my purpose is being unveiled... 

I have decided that I am going to slow down and make a point to see something everyday. Take a minute to really look at someone, or something or even a situation. It's quite an amazing feeling to have that moment sink deep within your soul and see it differently. I had a revelation of a moment that happened last year. I don't remember alot of the small details from the past but this one has stuck with me and I have finally figured out why. 

It was Friday morning at the daycare the day after Kari's Celebration of Life. It was a beautiful sunny day and we were dropping Anthony at daycare so that we could go and golf in the Treasure Life golf tournament. While we were waiting for the doors to open at 7:00 a semi truck drove up to the 4 way stop. On the passenger side door were the words "Kay Jay Trucking". At the time I noticed the name and thought...wow..that's cool. Looking back at it now I have finally figured it out....it was Kari....."hey guys here I am"....she wanted to get a glimpse of us and for us to get a glimpse of her. It took me a year to appreciate this moment for what I think it was. I know that some people would say "Oh, it's just a coincidence" but in my mind it was Kari......   

Take the time to really see..and to appreciate what is in your life. It is such a wonderful experience!

I love you Kari and I miss you....

Run Wild 2012

Saturday afternoon I charged my iPod in preparation for the run on Sunday morning. When it was finished I let Anthony listen to it as he done so many times in the past. Later on I asked him where it was..."I don't know Mamma"...really??? We scoured my tiny house....no where to be found!...really??? I thought of my Mother and how she prays to St Anthony, the Patron Saint of lost items. Perhaps this Anthony knew where it was. Nope.....Not much I could do..had to let it go. I was obviously not meant to listen to my running music while I was running. Sunday morning I woke up with my kidney pains...really??? then I had a nervous stomach...really??? I had a hearty breakfast got my running gear on and Tony, Anthony and I left for St. Albert. It was an absolutely beautiful sunny, crisp morning.  

I was feeling overwhelmed...but I was ready. I was here...and I was going to run 10 km!!

Little man walked me to the starting line...off I went. I know why I wasn't meant to listen to my music...I was meant to be in tune with the moment, my surroundings, the people along side me and mostly with myself. It was time to do something completely by myself for myself...and I did it!!! I did it in 1:05:06...almost 2 minutes better than last year. 
I know my pretty little butterflies were with me too xox

With all of the glitches before the race...they were minor in the grand scheme of things.

When things get rough and you think that there are forces at work putting obstacles in your path..remember it is most likely yourself...... Let love carry you through......



A few more

I think I had a creative growth spurt today......

Some sweet pendants I found....added the Swarovski Crystal butterfly pendants.

With a saying also on the reverse side.

Love the wood butterfly beads!

Something new